Because I never finish anything I start! Day 39

Well today is kind of a hum drum day. If hum drum is a word or phrase. What I guess I'm trying to say is that I'm feeling a little blue. Okay I'm depressed I'll stop beating around the bush. See, I did another one! So, what's wrong you ask??? Well it seems that there's always something that stands in your way of letting you just be happy. Now, some might say that it's entirely up to you how you feel but, I say different. You can be having an amazing day and before you know it the carpet gets ripped right out from under you. I went to the Senior Center today and I had Dustin take me because Alicia's car broke down and she needed a car for work. It was drama on Friday at the Senior Center so I was a little leary on how it was going to be. It seems that they, meaning the people that had attitude were a little nicer than they were on Friday. My theory is they know they were in the wrong and Darlene the person in charge comes back tomorrow from vacation and they don't want her to know what they did wrong. My feeling is, seriously are you people for real. I try so hard to not let things bother me and yet when I think I have things under control the depression creeps up on me like a dark shadow. I don't choose to be depressed it's just a fact of my life I have to live with. My Mom would say that we are ALL God's children yet some people are not very Godly. I don't think people realize what someone is going through and maybe that person has no where to turn and this could be the day that they say to themselves I give up! The person that might set them over the edge has no clue that what they say or do is the last straw. I guess my point to all of this is you never know what someone is going through and maybe just maybe you should think before you speak. We are all dying a little bit every day and no one was born with a time of death, so it seems to me that we should all make a conscious effort to be a little nicer. I thank God for the Mom I had to teach me that even through her worst pains of dying from cancer she was always thanking Jesus. It was bizarre to understand at the time but, if it wasn't for her faith in Jesus I don't think my faith would be as strong as it is in God. So, you might be saying then why the depressed talk? Well, I'm still a human being living in the human world and crap happens. It's just what the world offers. Some days are better than others but I think we should all try to get along better than we do.

Because I never finish anything I start! Day 37 & 38

Saturday the rain was coming down hard and it was a definite movie day! I didn't get to much done except a few loads of laundry and went to La Fuente restaurant to pick up some abondigas and pozole soup. It was pouring rain outside when I went, and cold so the soup made it a perfect night. Sunday had an amazing day at Church! The best day thus far. So many people went to the alter call and it was extremely moving to say the least. I could feel the Holy Spirit moving through that Church like I never have before. It was so emotional even Pastor Raul was crying! I can't explain it I can only tell you I FELT it. I've heard people talk about it but I never really knew the extent of how it felt. Today February 28, 2010 was a day I'll never forget. After Church we went to eat and then to Mom and Dad's house. Uncle Larry came over and we were all talking and when he was leaving he asked me to come listen to his daughter singing on a cd she made. Oh my gosh, this girl is gifted with an amazing voice! So angelic and so sweet and soothing. He made a comment and a compliment on how I looked good and there was something in my eyes that he said was different, my reply...it's God!

Because I never finish anything I start! Day 35 & 36

Yesterday went to Senior Center and helped with lunch and clean and wash tables and chairs. At 1:00p.m. went to play bunco with the people I played with last week. It was a good time! Day 36, had to be at Senior Center early because I was asked to help out as they were short handed. Arrived at Senior Center @ 7:30a.m. helped with putting the "meals on wheels" food together. Then went to Starbucks to p/u pastries for the Seniors. It was a very busy morning. Went to post office after leaving Senior Center to mail off some little gifts for my Uncle's daughters Emma & Sofia. Then off to home and now I'm ready for a nap!

Because I never finish anything I start! Day 34

It's a cat fight at the Senior Center. Seems to be a discrepancy between the kitchen and the front desk. Darlene has done and continues to do amazing things to keep those Seniors fed. She has to balance a budget and order all types of things and more. So, we planned on having our St. Patrick's Party/lunch on March 17, 2010. Now, the front desk just put out fliers saying they were having a "party" on the 17th between 11:00a.m. to 1p.m. Well that's not gonna happen because lunch is served at 11:30a.m. everyday and I don't know where they plan to have their "party" cause the lunch room will be full with the lunch crowd and the disabled come in for lunch that day too! I'm telling ya I don't get it. The Senior Center is for the Seniors. Why does it have to be a cat fight every time someone wants to do something nice? I've had Seniors come up to me and say "don't worry Tina, we're coming to the St. Patrick's Party you & Darlene are having!" Pray it all works out. I will find out tomorrow what happened with the front office & Darlene. She didn't look to happy when she left. Oh yeah, and today we gave Darlene early birthday presents! Some birthday, ruined her mood! Sad. Peace out, Tina

Because I never finish anything I start! Day 33

Well, today was another great day! Went to M.V. Senior Center this morning and had coffee and helped serve lunch. Today I even did the dishes!!! Woo Hoo! J/k, it's a lot of pans and huge cookie sheets and spoons and such. Talk about dish pan hands! I'm going to bathe my hands in lotion tonight. After kitchen was clean Darlene asked if I could make an extra car key for the Ford Focus that delivers meals to some Seniors. I said sure she said how much I said about 3.00. She gave me the 3.00 and I went to Ace Hardware. When I showed the gal the key she said she probably would not be able to do it. She stuck the key in some type of machine and it was a red light. Not good! She said the key had a chip in it and only the dealer could get the key at about 130.00!!! WHAT...hold the phone, are you telling me that this key is going to cost one hundred and thirty dollars to duplicate? Yep, she said. Darlene does not know yet. I will tell her tomorrow. Geez 130.00 for a key! Ah the humanity. :-) Peace out, Tina

Because I never finish anything I start! Day 30,31 & 32

Day 30, Had a surprise visit from my brother Tony!!! He had day jumps to do with the Air Force so he was in town. Danny & I went to San Bernardino Hilton to pick him up. He was with nine other Air Force people and they went to San Manuel Casino. So, he asked if we would like to go hang out there for a bit. We said yes and off we went to play some slots. Danny got to watch the UFC fight and Tony and I went slot hopping. I got on one machine and after a few minutes I said I was not feeling it so I said lets switch machines and on the 2nd or 3rd spin he got the bonus. (15 free spins) and during the bonus it re-triggered 15 more spins! That's when the machine went crazy and he walked away with a little over 300.00!!! OMG! That was supposed to be my money. It was funny, well not that second but after a while it was. Just kidding I was happy for him. I won 141.00 dollars. Day 31 was Sunday and I remember that day very well. My Dad was down and a few family members got together and went to MiMi's in Tustin. My Grandma was there and she's still as beautiful as I remember. We took lots of pics and had lots of laughs! When we left MiMi's we planned to go to Carmen's for dinner and she made chicken and mole and she asked if I could make potato salad. My Dad & Uncle & too cute Sofia came over to see Carmen's new home and dinner was excellent. But, before all this we went to my other Grandma's (Grandma Bea) and visited with her. Well, here's the story of my "lil" Shirley Temple doll. When I was around 12 or 13 my mom and I went Christmas shopping and this lady had like a boutique in her home. Well, being that Grandma Bea collects dolls I spotted this Shirley Temple doll. Grandma Bea has a lot of dolls and a lot of really old Shirley Temple dolls. Well back towards the kitchen of this lady's home I see this "lil" doll under a glass dome. It's Shirley Temple!!! I got my mom's attention and pulled her to the back of the house and said Grandma Bea would love this! My mom agreed and bought it. We were right she adored this "lil" S.T. doll. So, Grandma Bea always knew over the years that this was a very special doll even more special after my mom passed away. She always said that one day when she was ready she would let me have that "lil" girl cause she knew what it meant to me. Drum roll please...............SHE GAVE HER TO ME SUNDAY!!!!! She said she'd rather give her to me while she was still alive. Oh my gosh, anyone reading this needs to understand how huge of a thing this is for me. AMAZING isn't even a word to begin. I'm so happy! Really, really really happy. Shirley is about an inch and a half tall. (tiny). I am Blessed! Day 32, went to Senior Center and then left early to pick up my nephew at preschool. Then went to pick up other nephew at 2:00p.m. and then off to Dr.s appt. with my Ma-n-law. She had an Orthopedic appt. to check her foot. All is well and no more cast and in about 3 weeks, she's tip top shape again! My wonderful son watched the kids while I took my ma-n-law to the Doctors. He's a good kid<3 Whew.....now I'm caught up and here's a pic a my special "lil" doll, enjoy! peace out, Tina

Because I never finish anything I start! Day 29

Went to Senior Center and had a good time serving lunch and talking with all the people. Went around with the basket to sell more tickets for the raffle. It was another good day on sales. I went to a candle party in Mission Viejo and it was good to see my long time friend Tammy. It was a good day! Peace out, Tina