Interesting analogy from another blog

I was reading another blog and what she said had made a lot of sense to me. She talked about how the city and state and or community you live in could have an affect on your lifestyle. As I went to sleep last night I thought about this for a while and came up with the conclusion she's right! At least for me this holds true. In Moreno Valley it's not a booming city with lots to do or big corporations or big malls with high end stores. It's a small city with not much to do or offer. This is my opinion but I'm guessing if I took a poll people would agree with me.
So, I look at what's around and just off the top of my head I see homeless people and foreclosure signs and lots of damaged empty homes. It's not a bad city but it could be a reason for some of the depression and boredom people go through. I know for a fact it's the reason kids are experimenting with alcohol and drugs. Even adults, I know all they do on weekends and during the week is drink! Why? Lack of other things to do. You have to drive to another city to be able to go and do something a little more entertaining.
It could just be me but I think it has a lot to do with crime and other bad things. Don't get me wrong our economy has a lot to do with the foreclosure signs and homeless people. I wonder as a community if there isn't something we all can't do to make things better. A more prosperous city? I don't even know where to go to talk to someone about this. City hall? Don't you have to know what you're talking about before they talk to you?
All I know is I have three young adult children and they all say the same thing. "There's nothing in Moreno Valley to succeed". To me that speaks volumes! I'm glad I was able to get this off my chest. It makes me feel like I do know and I am aware of my surroundings. I hope someone reads this and knows a solution or a suggestion. One more thing. The people I know personally that have a good paying job have to drive at least a one to two hour "one way" drive to have a decent job.
Regards, Tina

Just want to talk

There are the days that you have things on your mind and no one to talk to. So, I'm going to type my thoughts out. I have been a little depressed lately. Probably the holidays and not having my mom around to share them with, or just because I have depression! It's one or the other or both. I am thankful for so many things yet at times I hear my brain saying "I just want to die". Is that normal? Is my faith in Jesus lacking? These thoughts are often, and have been happening for years. I mention to my husband and he says you talk about it so much God's going to make you live to be 100 years old!!! The thing is, do I really want to die? I'm not afraid of death (pain maybe) but not death. I want to be with my mom and the rest of the family that has passed but I also have my kids and my husband that I love and need to be with. I need to choose my words carefully. I don't want it to sound like I don't want to be here for my kids or husband. The emptiness that I live with day in and day out is pain staking. No one would know by looking at me that on the inside I'm hollow as a shell! No feeling, no emotions, and no happiness. Just lonliness. Christmas is my favorite holiday because it seems to be the one that I get a little glimmer of happiness through my kids eyes while there opening their presents and we all get to be together. I love it! I wish there were more days like that where I had more glimmer and shimmer then dimmer. Maybe I just need to get on my knees more and talk to someone that can do something about it. As soon as that thought comes out, my brain says forget that one you're not worth it and He doesn't care anyway! I know that has to be Satan discouraging me from Jesus and he does fairly well for the most part. I pray for Jesus to give me strength to get over those thoughts and to be able to draw closer to Him. Lord you know my heart. Heal me and make me new and not broken. I've been broken to long and I'm tired. I feel like I have no more fight in me. Lord lift me up and take away the pain and emptiness in my heart and life. Give me a new heart and sound mind. In Jesus name I pray, Amen

Just when you thought you were not even a thought...

Some days are kinda boring and then there are the ones that never seem to end. I was thinking about how many people I have in my life that I know love me and would be devastated if I were to leave earth. I was at the Sprint store up grading my phone and when I walked in this old man was coughing and choking. He just couldn't stop. I asked the sprint guy if they had any water in the back and he said "yes" but no cups! He also said that the man had already asked him for water. OMG, I was like are you kidding me this guy is having a coughing attack and needs water! I told him to take the next person in line and I would be right back. I went to Quizno's and bought a bottle of freakin water for the poor guy. He was very thankful. I just don't see how people can stand by and act like they don't hear the guy choking? So, it made me think of all the things that people do for each other, and not for each other whether it be a stranger or not. I can't count how many times I've witnessed someone doing something kind for another person. You might not think people don't see your kind gestures but they do. Something as simple as pushing the grocery cart back in place for them or holding open a door. It takes so little to put a smile on someones face. We all should be helping one another in this crazy world. Don't turn your back on someone that obviously needs your help. Don't be crazy, and approach people that look dangerous either, but you all have a good head on your shoulders and go with your gut. Going to more and more Dr. visits makes me wonder when my clock expires. I don't want to leave earth without helping as many people as I can. Pick a day of the week and tell yourself today I'm going to do something for someone, and then do it. I think we all have a "bucket list" and we could scratch off a few of those things by helping one another. Another thing, don't be in such a hurry. There are the days you wish you had a monster truck and you could mow down every slow car in front of you but why? I've learned and I'm still learning that maybe I'm avoiding a car accident or God is slowing me down for a reason. You never know. If your running late, you'll be late anyway so why rush? Take your time, put on a good radio station, listen to your favorite cd or i pod. Just slow down. Your heart rate and blood pressure will appreciate it, believe me! So, I guess for now that is it. I will take my meds and head to bed. Love & peace to all, Tina