" Motivation "

This word is what I lack in my life, motivation should be an easy thing to be able to get up and start the day. It's not an easy thing. I wish it was that easy. My kids want to do things, but I just want to do nothing and try and work my way back to the bed without anyone giving me grief. Not that anyone really does, it's just that I feel bad not functoning like I should be able to. Medication changes got me this morning and I wake up way to late. I wake up so late it's already late morning, early afternoon. Nothing to be proud of. I feel like a bum. I want to have someone light a fire under my butt to get me going. How does that happen and how do you begin. I think I would physically need someone to pull me out of the bed and pull me out the door. I find myself cancelling appointments cause the thought of leaving the house is not what I want to do. I even have money in my wallet and that is usually a motivator for me, that's not even doing anything for me. That's how I know somethings not right. I want it to change. Today I want to be the start of a new day. Today is my day to go play bunco at the Senior Center like I do every Thursday. I've missed the last two Thursday's. I love going to the Senior Center and hanging out with all of them. I would look forward to that day to come up. What's wrong??? Someone give me an answer. I know what my Husband would say. We've already talked and he says we need to go back to Church. I agree, my brain doesn't. It was better when we were going to Church. I will check back in after Sunday to let you know how it worked, or if it worked.